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Rise like a Phoenix

โ€œ๐“๐จ ๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ž ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž ๐š ๐ฉ๐ก๐จ๐ž๐ง๐ข๐ฑ ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐š๐ฌ๐ก๐ž๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ž๐š๐ง๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ž๐ฆ๐ž๐ซ๐ ๐ž ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐š ๐œ๐š๐ญ๐š๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐จ๐ฉ๐ก๐ž ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ž๐ซ, ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐š๐ซ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฐ๐ž๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ฎ๐ฅ.โ€โฃโฃ
Sometimes we have to burn and turn our egos to dust. We have to suffer the worst types of pain and humiliation, often caused by the people we love and those who claim to love us. โฃ
This is often a reminder from God that we need to reinvent ourselves. We need to depend only on Him and let go of our unrealistic hopes and expectations from people. โฃ
So here I go again on my own, with my people on the sidelines, cheering me on as I strive once again to be the best version of myself that I can possible be. The kind of person that He intended for me to be.โฃ


It creeps up and hits hard where it hurts

I find myself going from smiling to sobbing in zero seconds flat

I have been depressed before but itโ€™s different this time

This time it seems like the tunnel will never end

The break of dawn seems like a delusional concept

I want to run away, from everyone and everything

I want to keep running until I leave this pain behind

All attachment seems like shackles

I donโ€™t want to die though

I know I am needed and to some extent even loved

I know I canโ€™t stay away from my kids for long

Eventually I will run back to them

But for now I just want to run away

I want to get lost in the hope of finding myself