A place where I share my deepest darkest thoughts!

It has been a particularly hectic week. Lots of project proposals and reports to work on and submit. Have had to do most of it on my own and it has taken a toll especially since it is not over yet and there have been other contributing factors to work related stress.

Sat in the balcony this morning, the weather was beautiful. It was cloudy with a nice wind. Sipped tea while I tried to make out the whispers of the wind but unfortunately could not indulge in this pleasure for long due to the labourers making housing and commuting in the less developed that normal area I recently shifted to. They all felt a need to stare at me and not let me enjoy the rare good weather in Lahore.

Now back in my room reading an amazing book which my friend recommended (The Forty Rule of Love). Recently I am finding myself devouring books like a hungry animal. Finished three books in less than a month which is a record since I moved to Lahore. But I liked it and it is prompting me to write which I need to do.

Prayed on Shab-e-Barat, realized that I hadn’t prayed in a while. I last prayed at someone’s funeral and hadn’t prayed since. I suspect that I was a little upset with Him after that funeral without even realizing it. I asked for forgiveness for that as well. I feel that it was a very meaningful namaz because I was crying from the time I did my Niyyat to the time I ended my namaz.

My room smells bad. Like the dirty wet cloth that the maid used to mop it with. Need to light some candles to remove the smell and to maybe help light up my life. I hope that the candle I light for scent will light up my heart and mind and soul as well.